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Archive for September 2007

when the moon is in the seventh house, and jupiter a-lines with mars, then peace..

In Uncategorized on September 27, 2007 at 11:26 am

This explains a lot…..

Your sun sign: Libra

The Scales are the only zodiac symbol that’s neither animal nor human — but surely that doesn’t make you any less human. In fact, you are among the most sociable of the signs. As scales of old were really “balances,” so to do you seek balance in all that you do. You respond to situations with grace as you attempt to put others at ease. Artistically, you try to balance form, content, colors and elements, and for this reason can be drawn toward creative endeavors.

 

Motto: “To every action there is an opposite and equal reaction.”
Greatest Strength: Your grace and charm when helping others
Possible Weakness: Forgetting to take care of your own needs

 

Your Moon Sign: Pisces

The Moon in Pisces is like having an emotional antenna that picks up every radio station in the universe. Feelings flood in from all directions, sometimes filling you with delight, sometimes with panic. Learning that all you feel is not yours can be an enormous relief because it reduces the emotional load you have to carry. You are not responsible for everything that you feel. Yet this openness also makes you compassionate and imaginative, openly receptive to others and their needs. Knowing when to pull back, though, is essential to your well-being since you absorb so much of what’s going on around you.

Motto: “I can feel your pain,”
Greatest Strength: Boundless empathy and imagination
Possible Weakness: Being overly sensitive

Your Rising Sign: Aries

Aries Rising people tend to be in a hurry, not willing to sit back and wait, but naturally jumping into action as quickly as possible. You’re a pioneer, a leader, the one who gets the ball rolling, even when no one else is aware there’s a game to be played. You can be abrupt and impatient, even coming across aggressively since you’re the one who has to make the first move. You’re the sparkplug and the initiator, but if you come on too strong you sometimes can rub others the wrong way. It may be because you’re used to doing things on your own, not expecting much support and unwilling to compromise. When you slow down and take others into consideration, you get support that can lighten your load.

Motto: “Me first”
Greatest Strength: Being a pioneer
Possible Weakness: Impatience 

Your Chinese Sign: Rabbit

The RABBIT … THE VIRTUOUS RABBIT

Mantra: Always prepared to help the world.

The reserved Rabbit is very intelligent, intuitive and in touch with nature. Generous by definition, Rabbits can also be afraid of their own power. People trust them easily and admire them, but Rabbits themselves are cautious and discreet. Everywhere they go they create peace for others … but compromise their own inner harmony with sudden mood changes and fear. Rabbits are full of heart and love to take care of the wounded body, heart and soul — they are gentle and kind.

I wish I could sleep, But I can’t lay on my back, ’cause theres a knife for every day I’ve known you

In Uncategorized on September 26, 2007 at 4:55 pm

So….wow.

 

I just don’t really know where to begin.

 

Last night was so fucking intense. I finally let out some pent up emotion about my rape and it just hasn’t stopped. This would be time number six of crying today… and I am just like what the fuck am I supposed to do with that? I mean, it happened 1 year and a half ago to most people, but I think of it in terms of it happened 1 year, seven months, and 13 days ago. I donno what to do.

 

 

 

It really doesn’t matter how much I drink, or how much coke I put of my nose or however many hits I take with the fucking bowl…it there, it’s eating at me, it’s like he is sitting in the fucking room, smiling that fucking smile he was wearing while he did it.

 

Some days I still feel him fucking inside me.

 

 

 

WHEN THE FUCK IS THIS SUPPOSED TO STOP?

 

 

 

 

 

I mean…Jesus Christ.

 

 

It’s like I spend my days swallowing razor blades. Some are bigger, some are smaller. But they still fucking hurt.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

But I am getting out of town this weekend hopefully. I just need to see people I haven’t seen for a long time, and not be in Richmond

as long as he needs me..

In Uncategorized on September 20, 2007 at 12:01 pm

So I skipped Art History again. I just can’t seem to get to that class.

 

In other news, my birthday is in two weeks.

 

In two weeks, I’ll have been alive for 2 decades.

 

Whoopee.

 

But I think I am getting a cat. Because I miss mine.  Even though I see them about everyday, they’ve become Justin’s. Hell, they were always Justin’s. They never really liked me haha.

 

In other news, rehearsals a going good. Cassie and Sarah are both easy to work with and both very creative. I think it’s going to be a good production.

 

 

 

I took off Sunday the 30th in hopes of making it down to Norfolk. I just want to walk around, see Jackie and Sean, see the dock…just re-live a little. I think it will help me.

 

Because god help me if I don’t miss it.

Jesus Christ, that’s a pretty face,the kind you’d find on someone that could save

In Uncategorized on September 13, 2007 at 12:00 am

Wow.

A new journal.

This is mildly intimidating.

But it feels good.

So life…it’s beyond complicated.

Still so in love. But throughly questioning every thing.

Last night we got drunk together, and it was like “WOW we survived being drunk together!” but at the same time it was like “wow..we survived being drunk together..”

but goddamnit if I am not falling all over again.

but I look like the cartoon cat who’s dragging their nails down the side of the wall.

because it feels so dangerous.

good, but dangerous.